I want to be

不知道几时开始我渴望得到别人的注目，感觉到自己。。。。在别人眼中很平凡，我比以前讨厌平凡，我想要给别人一个惊喜，我不喜欢别人很快的定下论我是怎样怎样的人，我喜欢别人大跌眼睛的样子，你知道当别人知道我不是别人想的那样的时候，我多么得开心吗？ 我想要有一天，我可以有一个band 队，我可以高唱，我会弹钢琴 ，会打鼓。所以那个主题。我想像有另外一个空间，有不一样性格的我， 不同的发型，很开郎，很外向， 很会打交道， 喜欢出外等跟我相反的性格，可是样子跟我一样。我想如果我是艺术家，我可以把丑的事变成美丽的事，可以把拾到的垃圾变成伟大的艺术品。。。。XD 哈哈哈哈哈。。。。。。我在说什么。。。我想不是没一个人都可以这么做的。

I'm no better than anyone else , No one else is better than me .... i like this quote from Avril Lavigne , yes i know , she is not a perfect person but i admired her voice , her talent , her uniqueness ....i know i'm uinque , i want to get someone attention , a postive one ....not talent show or reality show , i don't need that stuff , i need someone fro mthat field discover me , discover me that i'm a unique person , have unique style & prinsiple ...

The more i know art , the more i knew myself , it 's like knowing myself , i knew i didn't choose a wrong option , i like this course so much , i have knew some coursemate , that ahve support me , even though i thought that i'm not good enough , at least , the only guys in my class say that , " you really can , ur style are unique , but the only weakness is u lack in patience , u really need patience so much , be more careful , & ur artwork will be really fine & perfect & nice , u know u can do it . " I remember tat time when i follow some lecturer to Pasar seni to see the exhibition of my other lecturer 's Installation Art Artwork ....This is what he say to me , even though sometime he seem to be really annoying & ...yeah really annoying & hilarious but he really a ........well...nice person ......it 's really weird to praise him in this blog ...., well he dunno english ...LOL

I want to be in the band so much , i like to sing .....since i was young but i want to be artist so much ...i jsut focus on my course FINE ART .....it 's really fun , i like installation art so much , i like painting so much , oil paingting , i learn Corel Painter 9 too ...but my painting skill not that good , my drawing skill not realyl good either .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Vu_nmZ1pXc

the christian singer that same age with me , awesome voice ....^^