Have too much to think about

I was thinking about the offer that the Q company ahve offer me to join in , which this started when i ask my friend what is she doing right now ? i mean concern how is she doing ....thatk ind of stuff ,and it 's all started when she say she doing a part -time job , i thought the part-time job is easy and i sound interested and then i keep asking her ( that time i was SMS-ing her ) and she keep saying not conveniece to say in the phone blah blah ...which make me curious is she doing some illegel job or something .....( i should be so curious anyway ...i'm so annoyed now ...i refused because of money matter .....blame it for my curiousity ....Dang...my curiosity fault !) And then i finally meet her "leader" or upline ...she explain to me abou those thing and stuff ...i was thinking of joinning but i have to give out RM2000 less than that actually RM1855 ....i refuse , that's 1st time . coz i was thinking my parent would never allow me to join this thing , and it's so complicated and so "ma fan " i just refuse right away ....now 2nd time ....she invite to some even and talk etc etc....i refuse ...but i dunno why i decided to go ...because she SMS me that she will give a surprise and i just go thinking that she will give me a birthday surprise when i come to a 5 star hotel ....knew that i have been bluff to go there....( i should refuse her again .....i should just headed home myself and not going to eat dinner with them ....and i eat sushi Oh my goodness.....i should just not go ....yup my parent hear it and forbidden me to go this kind of event and function .....i want to avoid her now ...i know but to avoid the " Ma fan - ness " to this kind of business .......the talk impress me a bit , because of afraid my bank account saving might be gone or something ....and because this time the economy is kindda terrible , i just decided to join and because of the offer the speaker have offer and say that not joinning Q company would a waste or something .....i try to be happy at there ....i realise refusing the offer that my friend have ask is the best way ....i know everyone want to earn much money .....but i jus dun like this kind of way ....yea ....malaysian base in hongkong company or whatever.....but i dun want care about earning money just to show off that u can buy some branded stuff or going to oversea ....i dun give a damn at all ....so refusing is a best way to make me happy .....i have to borrow the money to start a membership .....no .....i prefer my friend learn to bake in a store than joinning this stuff.......i thought she would have be like that .....*sigh* I was thinking of joinning when i graduated and working and started earning some money but .....NOOooooooooooo!!!! I dun want to bluff myself or " fu yan " （敷衍）my friend or something ......I just went on with my life ....i'm happy with the life i'm in .....