3/16/2009

I think i care what ppl think of me

很生气,为什么我一直都被人误会的……我心情好时,别人又讲我什么什么,好心帮人又讲,不要帮又讲我什么……做人真难……一肚子气,都不懂跟谁诉苦,好像觉得一直跟他们格格不入的感觉,都不懂跟他们讲些什么........
Is joanna not Joanah .....DAmn ......and someone else 's name always right , mine name always written wrong ....I'm so freaking angry and annoying , When i was seriously saying something , they din taking me seriously at all , and joking ....this is is freaking make me so angry , I try to talk something , i think they don't hear me at all , this is freaking angry
I'm so freaking angry , I'm so freaking angry ........I have not been taken seriously , like i was invisible ....whatever , i always have been i invisible , not visible to anyone at all , they always critic me for not being fashionable , ya....i'm old -fashion , dun ahve style ....i freaking weird , WHATEVER !!!!!!!
WHATEVER !!!!!!!
I 'm so sick of being a good person now ........so freak out now !!!!!!!!!!!!

I think i DO care what ppl think of me , I get so sensistive when ppl thought of me , Something i'm not .....

My Big bro used to make fun of me , because i pronounce spaghetti in a funny way , or i doing something really stupid , Who say my english is freakingly good , it's not , it 's so embrarassing , Like i 'm some kind of bloody idiot , and i was so sensitive when ppl say i can do thing rite , ya , I can't draw or paint something so realistic , I really sensitive about it and really care when ppl say i always so careless and clumsy and etc etc . and then when i didn't do thing carefully , my mom sometime would just scold me , and i feel so stupid sometime , i really senstive because i hope someone just say i doing good or great .....i guess it 's really hard , I seem to be like a over pampered kid , and like i'm big deal or something ......Dang ...! I 'm really freak out this time
Yup , I think i 'm really that rebelious type .........
And I suddenly just like a boomb just like that .......I don't know why ....I just my mood not really good .....Ya ...maybe i being TOO serious about something ....
Maybe i Don't have humour ...ya ....Maybe i shouldn't come to the Meeting ...... I dislike it when ppl dun believe my ability and say that i always mess thing up .....................Maybe i just being sensitive , but that's just me !!!

I just want to write it out and then forget about it .....just like shouting out loud !

I take this during chinese new year ...believe it or not ....just for fun conceptional photograph

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