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RAndomness .....Nobody notice my blog and my tweet ...whatever ....because i dun like to be notice , i'm kind of low profile so i guess some of the job doesn't fit me , i dun think i can pull off the teacher job very well if i get the full time job as art teacher ....u have to talk to children and have to communicate with them like fren , i dun think i do it really well ....

I dunno .....I like that phrase " Just shoot for the moon " i think that phrase lose magic on me ...it's doesn't work ....I know what i want but i can't get what i always wanted ....If i can't be a full time artist....Maybe Part-time artist ....but i don't think i have the chance to bee exhibited my artwork ..so i exhibited my artwork at http://joanna5549.deviantart.com If i have paypal account , im might sell the print and earn some money ....ohh , too bad i dun ahve credit card and any cash now or any +00000 amount in my account ....*sigh* I thought they want to have business together ....seem like it would never work out ....:(

Art teacher ....or teacher really not a job i always wanted to be .....So is that possible to work as Illustrator Assistant ....nah ...not such thing existed though .... I'm getting so frustrated ....I dun think i'm fully employed or something , Why dun my parent just happy that i will get a job that i can get like Rm1K + pay ....damn this is so frustrating ......I admire Jimmy liao style of illustrated book , could it be impossible that i ....draw that kind of stuff and get published .....( too many wishful thought and dream , never happen ......! )

I only want to earn back the money i have spend , isn't that hard ...why limited to have career or job related to art , it 's really freak me out .....or maybe i should study degree ? i gonna hate this country for din make art education so important , at least good for right brain , RIGht ? why art = graphic design , i'm designer blah blah ...... I dunno who i should talk to right now ? i dun think i can alk to my fren ....I just talk to myself or GOD the almighty one or the Wisdom one .....I thought i'm not worried anymore ...okay ...what if i work in IKEA ? that's sound crazy .....WHy i should work in graphic design job ? tell me a million reason why ? i'm not really good at everything .....DANG !!!!!!!