unhappy

i thought that we have something in common , but we still have something that not in common , for example religion , i know someone dun believe in GOD , some believe there're no god , some believe there're many gods , i believe in ONE GODS , i believe in something i always believe , i just have to admit i am a naive person , and i want to get a " shovel" dig a big hole and bury my " innocence" self just like paramore 's song " Brick by the boring brick " , throw my innocence into a hole and bury it ....i wanted to throw my innocence self away and accept this is a real world , no fairy tale existed , i wanted to ready for this cruel real world , education doesn't mean a thing , this is what someone think ....but whatever , i don't feel like care anything ....anymore , forget it , i'm on a rebelious self again but still i wanted to rebel and do what i want and stop all this struggle and prove that i don't need to work there anymore ....

writing out of topic again ....back to the topic , i can't believe i cry so hard last nite , crying my lung out coz i didn't get what i want , i still think that no one truly know me accept me and GOD ...i dun freaking care if someone dun believe in him , i tired of convince someone there're god , i sick of convince them that how good the product are ....sale are not for me ....i just wanna be what i wanna be ....that's all i ask , it's not too much to ask ....