Muchness

Seem like i lost that muchness which u can find in AIW ( Alice in wonderland tim burton version ) Madhatter say that Alice is grown up and lost that muchness she have when she was much younger then . So I feel like i lost something and i gain something , no pain no gain ! feel like my old friend and me doesn't have much to say and i feel like i don't want to talk to her , we used to have all kind of topic to talk about now all i want to talk about is art related topic . Seem like i only want to communicate with ppl with common interest with me or have something in common . I feel quite annoyed this week . Maybe because of my annoying and irritating colleugue and usually what she do i don't really care that much , she so Ge po chi ( busy body ) tell lie twisted the truth , I know i know it 's not like i don't know that this kind of person is existed but this week she is over the top and talk bad thing about me .

I think i might not talk with her , She never change this is what i heard from my colleugue coz this insane mad lady almost make her resign because of this reason , a small matter but make it 's like a big deal to everybody . I mean what the hell is she thinking anyway ? My other colleugue didn't really throw away her thing in the shelf just move into same level but different place but she just bising bising only ....Monday afternoon .....is she losing her hormone or something else ? no offend but my working day was good until this kind of thing happen to me . But i won't give up this job easily since i was the one who find this job and get hired to do something important : Teaching not busy body talk something not important , or even twist the truth of what really happening .

What happen to my old friend is that ...? maybe distance make us apart i guess . She don't really know what love is and she don't really know how to say the right word in the right time , and this is one of the reason why i am so angry . Form 1 u didn't really comfort me , and i don't think u really that concern me either . ur older sis is so far better than u . I don't think we have something in common since i always listen to different type of music while u always listen Mandapop/ cantopop music . I think maybe the old me not really know how to critic ppl that much , or i was only being naive . They are not really a good friend , sometime i feel like that's a hole in our friendship , now another old friend don't really chat with me on MSN / Window live messenger .

That's why i am alone , not because i don't have friend , i have try to invite them over for CNY , but they FFK me like so many time i feel so betrayed and upset i don't think she is that concerned about me that much anymore . She betrayed me but i didn't try to betrayed her , she lie to me about celebrate birthday and dress nicely but in the end it 's about direct sale ...how stupid she is to believe those ppl the freaking QUESTNET !!!!!!!!!!!